all i've been used to is people leaving. not to say that i haven't walked out on people. but. i've been walked out on by someone that is (was) biologically programmed to love me and my sister. forever. that's not a word i take lightly. i believe in forever. i believe in promises. and once you've taken those away. we don't have a whole lot left for me to deal with from you. but, today, my eyes were opened. someone that cares about me very much, made it very clear to me that all i've done was push people away because i'm scared of getting hurt. i know what it's like to be left hanging out to dry. but there are a whole lot more people who actually care about me that have stuck around. and those are the ones that matter. and i don't know who all even reads this. but if i've done that to you. consider this an apology.
in other news:
i bought a new car!!!!
-evan and i named her leia. it would've been stormtrooper, but the voice on the bluetooth (safety first, boys and girls) is a female. i absolutely love it. :)
-i mailed my application to tyler junior college for their diagnostic medical sonography program (ultrasound). i won't know anything until june, but i take all the prayer and thoughts i can get.
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